spin?

oh. coincidence confirms the concept of fate because people say, 'it was just a coincidence'

ah. what else might it have been.

i guess we look for meaning in things. but why have that feeling when we teeter still wondering if just was it coincidence or not?

that feeling gives me justification that meaning is inherent. that meaning exists. or at least that the such for meaning is real.

we don't see a concept such as justice. but that doesn't mean it's not real.
why strip ourselves of meaning? if it's our first impulse to think it means something why do we look for a way for it not to mean something?
sometimes we don't like what it would mean, i suppose.

but the more we protect ourselves from meaning we don't want to accept, we might also be degrading meaning we want to believe in.

we're a pretty balancing species. we like thins like this equals this and that equals that and this equals that so this equals this and that and that equals that and this.

or, i was mean to him and then she was mean to me and so he'll be mean to her and it all works out karmetically

eye for an eye, treat others as we'd want to be treated.

so 'oh, that doesn't mean anything,' so, 'hmm, well i guess that might not mean anything'

it starts with our own denial.

what's so bad about the meaning we choose to ignore?

guilt and stubbornness?

we shouldn't have done that and we want to forget it and not be responsible?

i'm just over the age of becoming responsible. these things are naturally interesting to me

environmental issues fit neatly into this kind of thought.

it means something and it's something that's wrong. you can fix it. then, it means something, and yes, it means something that great.

me sleep