momentarily right

hey, haven't seen me in a while.

the miracle of drinking, sometimes.

you haven't seen me because i haven't been around lately. i've done a job i can be proud of. no, i didn't actively diffuse me resume'. i acquired a bad habit, and passively put an end to it. ahh. how i am.

on the plus side, when i'm thinking positively, i think of dan hampton, a chicago bears defensive lineman, and how, on the football tape, merchants of menace, he talked about how the body was an amazing thing and how it took care of itself. thus, i can reach my goal many ways, and maybe it's the only way i can reach it now. the way i'm doing.

maybe, in finding out about myself, i've dwelled too much on what i'm realizing i'm not easily capable of. i see i'm a way, and i think, ok, but, if i'm that way, then it would make THIS hard to accomplish, or, then i probably couldn't be THAT.

alcohol is also a positive force.

oh well. i'll probably get back to you after this movie and a cigarette.

peace dogs