but then again, what the hell do i know

heh, here's a funny thought. i was just realizing that things of life can't be equal at the same time. they can only be equal in relation.

so i think this means for me that i can allow myself to see things even with a heavy weight towards one kind of perception or other. i can lean one way knowing that i'm not making myself unequal but that things will eventually fall back correspondingly. i'm looking forward to going up and down again. i find that my attention is better during such things, such excitement, such is how things should be at this time of my life. better than when i'm holding myself in check the best i can to see things and do things at their subtlest, trying to keep a high-pitched frequency wave as opposed to a long, low-sounding yet high-reaching (low-falling) one.

hmm, where did i just hear something like this?: like the universe expanding out only to collapse back; i myself can do these things

i think a mix of curious dog/nathan/maybe siona? which i'd link but maybe shouldn't