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christopher from the curious dog book wanted to have reasons to act like other human beings. he was autistic and thus didn't experience external stimuli as i do, say. or you. but like Data, he strived to fit in as a human, the ways he could. but unlike Data, who learned how to be human by people telling him what it was like to be human, christopher struggled to be human by observing what it was like to be human. (kindof). christopher saw that people swayed emotionally throughout the day. to christopher, it didn't seem rational to get angry just because someone was angry at him. his emotions didn't sway subtlely. when they did sway though, they swayed dramatically and he shut down. he rode a very very low-frequency wave. (i'm not thinking like real waves anymore that have a consistent up and then down and then back up. more like, he stays very very low for very very long and then sparks violently for a short period.) but anyway, christopher wanted to have a reason for him to give more significance to certain days rather than others. i'd imagine the way he saw life would have made the progress of days rather boring. like he was too focused from the moment he woke till he slept to ever let anything magical-seeming happen to him. he was too in control, unless he was completely out of control. so what he did was create completely irrational reasons to get his mind expecting the day to be good or bad. the way to expect a very good day was if he saw four red cars in a row on the way to school. and a bad day was 4 yellow ones.

now, i called the reasons irrational because they are, but christopher said that other people's reasons are just as irrational, just more accepted. like horoscopes and such. but, though irrational, obviously even to christopher's rational mind, we need reasons to do the uncommon. we don't want to be completely rational. even if we've learned that if we do something we may be hurt, we may still do it. (this must have been quite a stumbling block for Data i bet. in fact he's probably had this conversation with Troi.)

but yeah, people that seem to equal out form valid humans that shouldn't be locked up. many of the most self-deprivating ones find god in the most fantastic ways. the meanest can be the nicest at times. but here i'm all messed up because what about the most level-headed. no, that's a trick not real. it's a description error. level-headed could refer to a long-term trait for a person. it just means that they get the least angry and the least happy.

uh-oh! no one will agree with that maybe. even me. but that's where i get if everyone is equal. what if i argued that people, depending on how they live their life, can be considered better than others, have a better time, existence, and everything doesn't equal out in the end. do certain religions disagree in this way?

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