i would love to be a mediator.

maybe i'd fly on the lollipop. she's a good ship. for those of you who, for some reason (shame!), don't get that reference, assume if you'd gotten it, you'd've smiled with reminiscence.

but anyway, i'm so satisfied with the curious dog book. as with the million little pieces book. they spare me all the trouble that other books give. now, i'm not saying their techniques make for better books, but i don't have to struggle through them at any points. especially i like it just because it is new. i don't care what these writers are saying - i just want their thought-flow in my head. their thoughts are clear and simple and when they walk into a room there's a table and three chairs and please thankyou just let me imagine the room myself. i know you're in jail and so you don't need to describe a cliched jail room. i don't need to see the jail - it's already appeared in my head in the background and if you try to describe it you take away from what matters and all i'll do is try to envision the cliff on the right and the plateau on the left and way after i'd already given the character the environment. but anyway, yes, the book is so good to me and i'm loving it.

this post has two parts:

almost invariably, people look like who they are. it's such an odd fact. the man looks a little different and scruffy - his responses are a little different and scruffy. we end up looking like who we are or we become who we look like. like we either conform to what society thinks a person that looks like us should act like. or we act how we wish to think and act and somehow miraculously (because i wouldn't know how this would work and neither does science, yet*) we look like how we look.

*so something about science and general thought. i think that whatever we choose to pursue in thought and study we will learn more about. i think that our minds collectively are starting to wonder about more miraculous things. if we make a few of these things more mainstream in my lifetime and if we make wide scientific progress in them in my lifetime then i'll die knowing a whole lot about life just because that would be how it works. people say science like it is now understood. nothing is understood, yet. simply we can predict how things will usually act. religion is losing to evolution because it doesn't allow for study. the human mind wants to study and learn but the christian faith, in ways, says there's no room for more - it is and always will be. and that's cool in a sense but it will lose our interest but is cool because it can be our rock it never changes and so when things in science go out of control we won't have to and now i almost have even less of any kind of idea about what the fuck in what am i talking about.