fear of the power of love

i dreamt i was holding this baby girl. i held her so lightly against me and it was peaceful. but then, it started to feel like i was slowly squeezing her and compressing her. it felt like i was suffocating her. i panicked and tried very hard to release my clench, but i couldn't. in actuality i hadn't been holding her any tighter. but the light touch was so overwhelming that had i really been experiencing it, my heart would have started beating rapidly.

it was like how scalding hot water can feel freezing cold sometimes at first.