maybe i'll use the silent treatment

and i'm even getting into arguments lately. sure, that seems like it would be something that is counter-productive but that's only if i'm looking at it as if i'm above them. really, lately, i haven't been good enough for arguments. of course, what i mean by all this is that i'm allowing my feelings and more human aspects back into my life. i'm making a little room for them next to the improbable ideals that are


it's nice to get picked up by someone. it's very nice. to be down and to not care if the person coming up to you dislikes you for it, but then when you least expect it they cheer you up perfectly. it's amazing because i think there are so few out there that can do it. or it was just that i would never allow them to. scared of growing dependent on it or something.


so yeah, i thought arguments were so irrational and therefore unnecessary. i vowed to never let my emotions rouse. people agreed with my plan. hmm. ...sorry


so i was trying to get ahead but now i'm behindat least it will all seem real now