Nature as a Human Being

i was running from altoona's super sheetz back to my van, which i tend to call the saltstick these days, taking a bite of pizza from one hand while holding my italian hoagie in the other when reality bounced off of me quite happily. it was like i was really out and about. i felt it in my whole body and i was reminded of being seven in downtown ebensburg or something. it's like there is so much going on but by ignoring it all and paying attention only to what you are doing you seem to be able to feel or some otherwise experience it all. i've been striving for this feeling for years now. for some reason i thought i could get it by looking at the sky more when i was outside or by keeping my head on a swivel more or trying harder to feel it all, but it turns out that when you forget about it all for a moment it will wash over you on its 0wn accord eager to be noticed. if you lavish all of your attention on reality it becomes aware that it doesn't really need to do much to impress you. you are just another victory in its bag. but if you ignore it for a while it pushes itself a little harder and forces those quick clouds into your vision so that you're not thinking 'keep an eye on those clouds, they look awesome, i just know they do,' but 'whoa...'